till the sky falls down

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Too cold for comfort

vintage waist coat
asos snood
margiela shirt
topshop dress
lapponia ring
asos boots


Hey.. and sorry for being away for a while.. I'm back from my 2 day getaway that I really did not have time for.. resulting in now being totally stuck, forcing my self to finish uni projects before next weeks deadline..


anyway finland was awesome and freezing, the days totally flew by.. I'll get to go back in a few weeks, but before that I get to enjoy the first snow in london and a good portion of xmas hypeing.

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the reward is so much greater than the risk

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Le Love,
I read this blog all the time but over the break I hadn't been able to get to it. I just caught back up and in the process I saw the picture, this picture, you posted and I started crying...

Honestly I know that thousands of people have regrets about risks not taken but mine keep mounting up.

#1: Edwin = “Chances we didn’t take”
Edwin was my really good friend, then one I opened up to without feeling like I needed to get romantically involved with him. He was also the one I couldn’t tell my family or friends about because of his race. When we both started feeling for each other we both knew I would be risking a lot more than he. In the end I didn’t take the chance. REGRET #1.

#2: Mike = “Relationships we were afraid to have”
Mike is a great guy who is slightly older than me. My friend’s initial reaction to him was mixed which caught me off-guard. I ended up telling him we should just be friends way earlier than I should have—I didn’t even give him a chance really. REGRET #2

#3: Mike (again)= “Decisions we waited too long to make”
It’s been 3 weeks since we talked…I screwed it up Big Time. Sometimes I think if texting him and acting like it was an accident just to open up communication again, but I am afraid he is still upset. Why didn’t I just let him in? REGRET #3.

Can someone please tell me how they stop the regrets from mounting up? Because I can’t take many more…..and they are all 100% my fault.

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chaos/order

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oh, blerg!

A.P.C. trench coat, Steven Alan dress, A.P.C. shirt, vintage oxfords


Just spent a nice relaxing weekend with family (thanks for taking my pictures, mom!) and now I'm back in Berkeley where the high in is in the 50s. Super excited about tomorrow, it's finally time for El Clásico!! Oh, and my birthday. Too bad I have a paper and presentation due right after. I'm keeping this short because all of my creative juices are running dry after writing 5 pages about baroque Spanish poetry...






I'm off to Zuni now for dinner. CHICKEN FOR TWO! Sounds like a good birthday.

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Princess dress up games à la lanvin

hm x lanvin dress
new looks shoes

Dress up games made easy by this beautiful lanvin x h&m dress.. not the kind of dress that I'll wear every saturday but that's not what I base my shopping on anyways - never have, never will. This red one will be perfect for the holiday season where overdressing is totally accepted - if not sometimes mandatory.

now I'm off to my cousins engagement party, where the dress code was 'something red'.... I guess I took that advise quite literally.

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Madman Cosplay Championship-Brisbane,Australia

Alodia was invited to Australia and be part of the Judges in Supanova Expo-Madman Cosplay Championship 2010.

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Alodia Gosiengfiao as Rei Ayanami in Grimrock version


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Dhee Chan as Vocaloid Luka Megurine in the Sandplay Singing of the Dragon

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my confession

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I'm only young. But in my short life I've seen love, love lost and found, love shallow and true. This blog is beautiful, it helps me feel when I was numb before. I don't think you'll publish this, but I trust you to understand, and I need understanding. Here goes.

I don't know why I always do this. There must be a genetic quirk in my brain or something, because I genuinely can't help myself. He is beautiful. He is smart. He is gentle and sweet and sexy and moody and as close to perfection as I can stand. Close as I can imagine. We've never kissed, never touched even. But I am his. For sure, I am his. Whether he wants me or not. There is no doubt about that. I think he wants me too. I think he's close to wanting me, close to doing something about the way we are.
But this weekend. I made my mistake. The same one I always make. To be brutally honest and not in an arrogant way, I've always been the sort of girl with quite a few guys around me, but until this weekend I've managed to keep away from them. Managed to rebuff their advances gently and sweetly while never losing the dreamy expression that the one I belong to gives me. I woke up this weekend. I woke up when I fell asleep in his arms. It wasn't the right him.
I was at this person's house. I drank wine with his mother, and mine. Then they went to bed, he slid a movie into the machine. His house is a beautiful farmhouse in the country; cold and big. We were in the smallest room on a couch with a blanket and a coal fire in the corner. I don't know that I need to be explicit here; one thing led to another. He cradled me in his strong arms, he kissed me with his lips and tongue and teeth, I felt his heart pounding through the thin cotton of my shirt. He was lovely. It was amazing. But he wasn't the right him.
And now I don't know what to do. My guilt is crushing me- not that I really did anything all that wrong. He's not mine, I'm not his. Not officially. But if that's true, why do I feel so sick? This is my confession. I wish I hadn't needed something like this to make me realise how much I love him. Because now I don't deserve him.

I needed to tell someone.
I feel embarrassed, and stupid, both the user and the used, full of self-loathing. This is my confession.


I love you, Christopher, with every shattered piece of my wasted heart. I'm sorry for everything.

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Shiny new things

topshop poncho
hm silver knit
topshop pants
zara bag
pamela love claw

Hey! and good morning from the airport.. I am having my morning coffee on a unusually quiet airport and had a few extra minutes to sit down.. I guess it's been a while since I traveled this early in the morning. I was up all night trying to pack but did all other things instead.. I never manage to sleep before I fly.. luckily I realised last minute that packing was easier than normal when all I really need for a weekend in finland would be my lanvin x hm dress that took all the place in the suitcase, still really love it and can't wait to snap a few photos for you... more on that later, here are some of my new things..

have a great weekend everyone and happy thanksgiving to the ones that get to celebrate it... x

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fragile hope

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More from asos

More asos pieces for the 'future stylist competition' I mentioned below.. these shoes are really cool and my new favorites! tomorrow the entries will go up on asos facebook site, can't wait to see all the outfits...

also, check out my margiela paper shoes that got featured on jak&jil!

xxx

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Asos future stylist competition

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Hi all, I have exciting news! I was asked by asos to take part in a styling competition that involved me styling up looks to specific themes, using their pieces. On friday the looks will go up on asos facebook page where you can vote for your favorite.. don't forget to check it out!

I'll post my submission photos here later this week, here are a taste of the 'shoot' with the given theme ''christmas party look that steels the show''

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this one goes out to all the best friends

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It's a different type of love, and maybe we all need a break from the achey, sweet love that comes with romance, the kind that excludes the rest of the world, the kind that's limited only to you and him / her.

So this one goes out to all the best friends in the world. The ones that smile for you when you excitedly fall in love with some new, unknown boy. The ones that sit through a pack of cigarettes with you at two to five in the morning listening to you cry about said boy who cheated on you even though they've got to be up at six for work. The ones that take time off work / school just for a little naughty afternoon shopping and eating on weekday. The ones who drag you to social events just to distract you from a broken heart. The ones who respond to every facebook, every twitter status update, just so you don't feel so alone and ignored. The ones who recognize you have a right to feel as shitty as you do about the boy who hurt you even though they'd spent the last two years telling you he was nothing but trash, the ones who don't tell you you're a fool, the ones who tell you you've a right to hurt. Because they're also the ones who have the strength and the love enough to tell you to snap out of it, that he was never worth it, because they're also the ones who have the courage to be honest enough to tell you you'd be a fool to take the manipulative creep back. The ones who bombard his messenger account with warnings to leave you alone, the ones who tell him behind your back to leave you well and alone, to stop messing with your mind when he's already with someone else. The ones who introduce you to new and wonderfully normal and loving boys.

This one also goes out to all the best other-gender best friends in the world. The ones that pick you up late at night for supper, just to take you out of your head. The ones that show you not all the men in the world are screw-ups and traitors, the ones that help you believe that good people still exist in the world. The ones you can laugh with without wanting to kiss, the ones who can give you that insight into that boy's soul you've been dying to know. The ones who swear they'll beat up / get the triads to beat up the poor sod who had the poor judgment to cheat on someone as wonderful and incredible as you even though it's the first night they've met you. This one goes out to all the incredible best other-gender best friends in the world who stuck around even when you abandoned them because your possessive ex-boyfriend went loco every time you even spoke to them. The ones that love you exactly the way you are, the ones that don't mind you snuggling against them just for a warm body without asking for anything more, the ones that come all the way down to the club from home just to drive you home, the ones that cry with you when you sit in your darkness wondering what you've done to deserve such betrayal from the one boy you'd give anything for. The ones that hurt with you when you're drowning in your darkness, the ones that hurt because they see your pain and can't do anything to touch you, to help you.

Friends never betray each other. We fight, sometimes. We disagree. We laugh at each other. But friends, friends are something else altogether. Friends are God's way of saying: here, I know it's tough trying to find your soulmate, but here are some other people you know for sure you can count on forever. They're like family, but better because they love you without the moral obligation attached.

I see you, my lovable friends. And I love you. This is my apology, for doing what I did to our friendships, and this is my way of reminding the world that there is more love in the world that what exists between some guy and a girl.

I love you, my best friends. More than I ever loved him. I promise.

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Shop open

Hii! I finally got around opening the shop! above some of the items I'm selling! check the 'how to shop' instructions on the right side, all items listed are available.. I will be adding lots more within the next days..


GO TO THE SHOP HERE

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Sebastian Michaelis Cosplay-Kurushitsuji

Jia Gold Bustamante cosplay as Sebastian Michaelis in Kurushitsuji last 2010 AnimeXplode, where she was invited as event judge.
Sebastian Michaelis is the butler of the Phantomhive household which is a dutiful and dedicated to Ciel. And follows each order faithfully, while always guaranteeing that the Phantomhive house runs smoothly.

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never love a wild thing

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Le Love is now on TWITTER! ♥

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wizard cape

vintage cape, american apparel tights, vintage boots, lanvin x h&m sunglasses



I found this cape deep inside my closet when I was cleaning it out this weekend. I think I bought it at American Rag in SF right before it closed. I watched Harry Potter last night after a successful marg & guac fest at Chevys (SUNDAY FUNDAY!!). It was okay. The movie, I mean. I read the final book three times when it came out and I don't remember it being that boring. I guess nothing exciting really happened in the first half of the novel but the next one is going to be way better, obviously. Good thing I was drunk.

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he will make me complete

oh magpie!

It's not like I won't find someone new, you know.

We both know it's not exactly a question about lack of choice. It's only a matter of time before I stumble across that person who will somehow make my world magic again. Just by looking at me he'll put a hundred different feelings in my body and my head will go completely blank when he smiles. My heart will skip a beat from the slightest sound of my phone, and everything I do when he's not around will be colored by his absence.

I will meet someone who doesn't have that need of playing games and instead of following all kinds of rules, simply follows his heart. Someone who makes me wanna look past all the times I've been hurt and feel like it's actually worth risking everything again. Someone who makes me wanna fight my fears of opening up so I can let him in, because the thought of him not knowing me completely is far worse than my fear of rejection.

He will sigh at my stupid jokes and the way I tend to forget stuff and mess everything up, but deep down he'll love it because love's not about accepting each others flaws, it's about loving them because they make us who we are. I will find somebody for whom I am prepared to show not just the strong, independent side of me that the rest of the world know, but also the insecurities that make me wake up in the middle in the night crying because I'm sick of hurting.

He will not give me my confidence back or make me love myself again. I have no need for a fairytale prince who lifts me up on his white horse and saves me. He will make me complete though, in a way no one has ever done before, and together we will get struck by love so hard that nothing will ever be the same again. You see, I know he's out there and I won't stop until I find him. Cause I deserve nothing less than to love someone who loves me back and this I know. So there's really no need for you to worry. He could be right around the corner when I walk out this door today.

The thing is,
With all my heart
I still wish he could have been you.

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